Todays to do list.

I finally got round to sorting the dinner table out. It's normally filled with all my craft stuff. So I bought a new storage drawer and set it up .
Once Steve has gone to work and esmae is asleep I will get started . Tonight I have 10 bibs to sew and 4 reusable nappy inserts to sew. The bibs I will just do the first lot of sewing them tomorrow i will do the top layer plus press stud fastenings . The nappy inserts don't need to be perfect as they will just be for home.
On the next to do list I need to,
- a girlie blanket for my friends baby box.
- more reusable breast pads for friends baby box.
- need to cut out fabric letters for next lot of photo frames ready to sell on my Facebook page.
Please let me know what you think.
Here is some photos of today's to do list and my photo frame for my friends baby box.

sunday sewing.

Today I made esmae some tights and bandana bibs. I love the bibs they are so pretty and once teething kicks in they are very practical.
Tights are pretty simple to make to. I used a pair for the cost of £1 and they look nearly as good as shop bought. I got given a pack of tights but they are so expensive in the shops so couldn't believe how simple they were to make.
I am doing 10 bibs for a friend so have fleece cut out just to cut the fronts out. I'm using same pattern fabric just 1 lot is blue and the other pink .

It's rebooked !!!!

So we changed our original wedding date as it would be happening in 2 months time yet we hadn't even planned anything ha ha.
Our new day is 15.6.13 @ 2pm. I am feeling better about it that other half came to church with me so I feel he actual wants to get married :-). Except for the blog and close friends we are keeping it quiet until January just to get things sorted. I need to start ailing venues for a meal after the church for just family and some close friends.
I will be starting my diet properly in January to . I'm going to try and cut out junk and eat more fruit and fry and loose some weight but not doing it as strict. I plan on being a size 12 and would love to be 12 on the day. The wedding won't be too big just church for friends and family then the meal . The plan then is to go away on the monday to Weymouth.
I'm excited now can wait to start buying. We aren't spending too much as we don't have a big budget.wish me luck.
Soon to be mrs watts x x

Crafty Thursday

I had a bit of a mad craft day thursday and thought I would upload some pictures.
I made,

 * Chocolates
 * Photo Frame 
 * New basket for pushchair

The Chocolates were pretty easy to make. I bought some coloured chocolate plus some ordinary chocolate to. I also bought some smarties and coloured sprinkles. I had a look in our hobby craft but didn't find any moulds I liked but found a butterfly one on offer so picked it up. I went to the shop next door and picked up a cake mould and used this.
I sprinkled the sprinkles on the bottom of the mould. We didn't have a glass bowl to melt chocolate over the pan so used the microwave instead. Once in the microwave I set the timer for a few minuits and stirred the chocolate every 30 secs. When I was happy with the melted chocolate I place the chocolate into the moulds. The moulds went into the fridge to set. You can buy quick set chocolate or shop chocolate, whatever you fancy will be fine.
If its normal chocolate it might take a bit longer in the fridge to set but it still has the same finished look.
Heres some photos.

I am thinking of making some for Christmas as presents from the kids. With jars and a pretty label I think they will look fab. I might also try flavourings to add to the chocolate.

Photo frame.

Here is a photo of my finished photo frame I made. Heres a link so you can make it yourself if you like. :-D

My last craft of the day was a new basket for the pushchair. With the double pushchair caleb is at the back of the pushchair and the basket isn't very practical for both shopping or feet. I used cardboard for the inside of baskets cover to add strength to hold feet. If you want to know how I made it please leave a comment and I will update .
I havent tested it out yet but Im hoping it will be ok just for making sure Caleb's feet don't scrape on the floor.

Thanks for reading. xx

Photo Perfect Tutorial

This is my first tutorial and hoping to do many more. I enjoy creating things out of stuff I already have and just go along with it. I needed a photo from for my grandma as its her birthday the weekend so wanted to create something pretty and one of a kind.

1. First you need to decide on a photo frame. Local £ stores or bargain shops tend to do some. I picked mine from the local home bargains for £1.50.

2.Choose what you want to put on your frame. I chose caleb and Esmae's name. Use plain paper to measure the size of the photo frame to get an accurate size for your design. Draw and cut out your design.

3. Arrange your letters to see if you need to alter the templates and if it looks ok.

4.Use your paper templates and place the wrong way around on the back of chosen fabric or material.

5. Cut out all your letters or templates.

6.Before gluing your fabric double check it fits on the frame and looks how you want it.

I cut some extra fabric to break away the space on the top and bottom wood. You could do hearts, stars or anything to complete the design.

7.Glue your fabric. I used pva glue but you could use any glue that will allow you to attach fabric to the wood. I used a paint brush to make sure all of the template was covered.

8. Once the glue is on the fabric stick to the wood and press down gently to put it into place.

9. I wanted to make sure everything was in place. Because pva glue dries clear I used the pain brush and covered the fabric and frame with the glue so nothing wood move of the frame once dried.

10. Pva glue is pretty quick drying but to make sure it was dry I left it for 2 hrs. Once you are happy with your design , choose your desired photo , place in the frame then show off your finished masterpiece :-)

Hope you have enjoyed the tutorial.Feel free to ask any questions.

Family fun.

So im currently off on maternity leave until january and except for my missing my friends I would love to be a SAHM. But we have a mortgage to pay and others bills to so looks like I have to go back. Whilst i'm off we are trying to make the most of sundays as we dont tend to go out much together.
This sunday was park time.
Caleb is crazy for open spaces and loves to run. Unless there is a squirell and he stops still :-). we fed the ducks.
We spent over an hour over the park and caleb loved it. He didnt want to come home.
Then it was time to do a bit of shopping. Asda was near so we took a walk around. Esmae seems to have a lot of clothes but couldnt resist getting a few more. A dress for mondays wedding, a new coat and another dress.

We have wedding monday and need to finish buying for our clothes. I bought a dress but I dont like the look of it on so im exchanging it for a top then I can wear my black trousers and wedges and hopefully look ok. Steve and caleb are all suited up , cant believe how old he looks. Looking forward to the wedding taxi is booked yey so roll on monday.

We  have decided unless a new housing development comes up and we can afford it we are staying here for max 4 years so after our holiday and wedding next year we are trying to create a homely feel to the flat. Really need to decide what we are going to alter. Heres a list of what needs doing.,

• Bedroom needs new look as it is currently a boring cream not really a place to relax. So once I have decided on a quilt I will work colours around it and sew a few things to.
• Bathroom needs painting and some extras to make it a bit more modern. I wish it had a differenr layout but theres not much we can do about that.
• Kitchen needs completely doing. Think we will need to buy cupboards each month as we have over 10 so will cost alot all at once. Maybe another lick of paint and it will look better.
• Hall needs new carpet and a big family photo so think that will be one of my next creations. Choose a main photo of us all then place other photos around it.

I cant wait to book our hoilday, we went last year and we are going back next june just a few days after the wedding.
We really need to start planning. There is so much to do and choose yet its only supposed to be a small thing ha ha . We arent having a party just a family meal but thats enough just deciding where to eat.
So I think the colour chosen is fusia. I do love pink and cant wait to pick bridesmaids dresses, fingers crossed they will accept to be bridesmaids. Off to change the original date this friday at the church :-)
Photos to come of sundays trip to the park xx

Setting a date :-)

So we are actualy setting a date- fingers crossed the church isnt booked 15th june 2013.
We have decided to get married just before our holiday and treat is a honeymoon. We have also decided to do up the flat as a home until we can afford to move out. Majority of our loans will be paid in 4 years time so finger crossed then we will be about to move out.
So I know need to make a list for a- the wedding & b sorting the flat out.
Will updayte properly tomorrow. Only 300 days to go xx

A random post x

I just want to write a random post about everything that I'm thinking about write now.
There is so much I miss right now and they are-

• My partner- I miss his company as with him working nights I feel i hardly see him. The 2 days we have together seem to fly by :-(
• My friends. I have some who live around me but now working patterns have changed and I dont see them as much. My school friend who is currently pregnant yet lives 2 buses away and I wish I could see her daily as i miss the company and the non judgmental chats about life and kids.
• My work- Even though I only work weekends, i miss the adult company and my friends there to. I miss the feeling of doing something for 8 hrs and the interaction with the public to. Need to sort some keep in touch days. .

I think once everyone is asleep I realise how much I am on my own and really need my partner around me to give me comfort and care.

Am I being a over protective mom??

Caleb is my life and so is Esmae. But I keep worrying there is something wrong with caleb. These are my worries-

• Weight - He is a fab eater but he is skin and bone. I am going to see how much he drinks daily as he drinks so much it is crazy. With me being diabetic it doesn't help.
• Ears- He is forever getting ear infections and I think there maybe something wrong with them. He is forever falling but I don't know if he is just clumsy. His shins mainly are forever covered in bruises.
• I think I may either speak to the hv or book and appointment just to ease my concerns. I know he is going through the terrible 2's but I just get this feeling something isnt quite right and I love him to pieces no matter how much he tests me.
• Maybe I just worry to much.

Diabetes!!

I really am getting fed of it , maybe this is why I am feeling so down and lonely. I feel there is always something I am worrying about. I know there is people far worse than me but I just want a break. I want to not worry what I am doing, if I will have a hypo and end up in a fit, I want to not have a pump attached to me and not have to change it every 3 days. I have started to get funny feeling in my feet and I really hope its not another thing going wrong. :-)

Esmae- I love her to bits and I am so proud I can feed her through expressing. This is the one thing that makes me smile right now. Knowing I havent given up and am helping esmae. I am currently waiting to hear about a hip X-ray . Fingers crossed its just precaution. I am worried about winter and hoping her breathing problems from birth won't effect her in the cold months. Hopefully breastfeeding will give her the boost.

Theres quite alot that is getting me down and its just a constant cycle. Maybe I should explain to the dr but then will he put me on more medicine. My mind is constantly worrying and I wish it would stop.

Here is my list of things I am happy about-

• I am proud to say I am still expressing for esmae even if it is hard work.
• I love my family to bits , I would be lost without them.
• I love my partner wish things were easier so I could see him more.

Here is my wants.

• To find a new home, I really want to be out of the flat now. I want our home, where we can do it up and stay there for good. A place for my sewing, a garden for everyone.
• A month free of no appointments, just days where I can see friends.
• I want my partner home at nights. I miss him so much. I want him here to hold me , kiss me goodnight and not worry if I will end up fitting.
• I want caleb to be ok and stop worrying about every little thing that could be wrong.
• A plan for my diabetes. It needs sorting I just want it to be easier.
• My final want would be a small, intimate wedding xx

Sorry for the ramble just needed to get it of my chest. xx Thanks for reading.

Diabetic friends wanted :-)

Im in need of some diabetic company.
I love writing my blog as its somewhere I can write down day to day doings and hoping soon I will start to get comments to.
Diabetes is a big part of my life and would live others to share their comments and feelings. I was put on a insulin pump in 2010 and haven't looked back its been a life saver. My recent pregnancy would of been worse and I probably would of had more hospital visits due to hypos.
My partner works night so I can set it to reduce in the night as I suffer quite bad with night time hypos and it really isn't nice. 
Its now 12 weeks after my c-section and my current hba1c is 9% which isnt that good. I really am determined to get it down but my fear for hypos is the main reason it stops me.
I am going to try and find a tool so i can upload a weekly graph of my sugars so I can find a trend in my sugars.
You would think 15 yrs of having it I would be a master of it but im far from it.
Must go esmae is calling for a feed will pop back after.
xx faye x

A good day.

Today was a good day.
I had diabetic nurse at 2 and it decided to rain :-(. I had lunch and done bag so all prepared with sweets, pop, crsips and the ipad ready for caleb. I was hoping he would sleep and to my delight he fell asleep just as we got there.
Today was about finally telling them I cant deal with the hypos but am scared of the consequences if my sugars continue to stay above what they need to be, I really wish it was more simpler.
I am so scared of having a bad hypo as caleb doesn't understand them and he has already seen 1 and that was bad enough. I even left clinic on a hypo without even realising. 
Next appointment is 30th august so hoping I will have more improvements.
My hopes for that appointment are.

• normal bp.
• no protein in water.
• feet worries are something small and not a big problem.
• No eye appointment made as the eye infirmary is silly.
• To come out feeling the dr has listened to my concerns and explain things I want to know about.

I also went out with 2 of my friends and it was so nice to get out and just chat. I had already had tea but that wasn't stopping me from having chips plus an ice cream. Most of my friends now work most days so I miss our usual meet ups with them and the kids. Fingers crossed its nice monday and we are meeting up again. My school freind is the one I wish I could see more but even though we live in the same town it takes 45 mins just to get there. She has 2 boys and caleb has so much fun. Im looking forward to her baby growing up with esmae. Im hoping they will be close.

I must admit I miss not having friends constantly there and the ones you know no matter what you say you wont be judged.

At times I feel quite lonely and hoping that people do read this and soon I will get followers and comments.

I would love to hear from other diabetic moms to hear your stories and a general chat xx faye :-D

Another hospital visit!!

Tomorrow I have an appointment for my diabetes with the nurse. Im hoping from the download of my meter everything will look ok. I have had a good 2 weeks after I tweaked my insulin pump. Still getting hypos but not as bad. I am still going to talk to the nurse properly tomorrow and explain I will never be fully controlled because I can't afford to have big hypos with caleb and esmae around. 
My appointment is at 2pm so I am hoping caleb will take his afternoon nap and esmae will be fast asleep to.
I cant believe its been 15 yrs. since i have been diagnosed. The only trouble is the longer you have it the more complications you seem to get and with me having at an ealy stage its difficult for me as I just want to lead a fairly simple life.
Im getting fed up of changing injection sites, checking my blood and eating the right things. I Just dont want any more problems with it. I also have my clinic appointment next week so hopping tht goes ok although I have been getting funny feelings in my feet so will have to mention that as I am scared it will get worse if I leave it.
So lets hope tomorrow goes well. Will update later tomorrow xx

Pearl anniversary present?

Ok so I need your help If your reading this. I have just found out its my parents pearly anniversary. I knew it was their anniversary but not the big 30. 
What I can I get them or even make myself to give it that personal touch.
I have a local craft store so can go there for supplies but stuck for ideas.
Please leave me a comment I have until 6pm tuesday xx

Family time :-)

I have had a busy few days and don't know where the weekend has gone. We had a mini picnic friday and caleb loved it. Sainsbury's were selling outdoor stuff pretty cheap so we had bubbles, bowling and catch fun .

Caleb wanted to share his penguin.

Saturday we went to a local park by my parents and caleb ran my dad ragged. I hate it when we have to leave. 

Sunday was another day with my parents we were invited to a bbq. The weather didn't start off too good and was worried we couldn't go. My dad was going to pick us up but caleb loves the train so caught it to theirs and he loved it. I had esmae in the ergo and caleb held my hand. The train journey isnt too long so we were there in no time. By the time we got in , had a catch up people started arriving. Caleb loves people and chatters away. Its so nice to see him in the garden. My brother came later and caleb loves him. we ate, caleb played and didn't pull a face when it was time to go as he was knackered.

As soon as we were home he was in bed fast asleep :-D

I love my family xx

Baby Clinic for Esmae.

Yesterday was Esmae's first lot of injections so we had to all 3 appointments. Weight, dr and then jabs.
Weight was fine a nice gain of 1 lb 6 oz in 3 weeks so she is now 11 lb 11oz. Think she is in-between lines but Im happy and this time around I'm not worrying about weight as its too much stress and she isn't loosing weight which is the main thing.
Dr- The Dr did his check which included checking eyes, breathing , head control and asking me about smiling, following us and startling. Now here comes the thing I didn't want to hear. The Dr is referring her for a hip x-ray. Just the left one seems clicky.
So there goes my hopes of september being a hospital or dr free month. :-(
Looking at her red book nothing was picked up when she was in neonatal so Im hoping its nothing just a check up and that nothing comes of it.
Jabs- I had taken the other half with me so he could hold esmae as he did it with caleb and didn't want to go in with esmae. As we were one of the first at clinic we were second in. The dr. took me straight to nurses who did the jabs and didn't get time to get other half. The 1st one she cried instantly and the 2nd was delayed but its horrible trying to console them. Within seconds she was fine like nothing had happened. I was expecting a long night but other than 1 extra get up she was fine .
I just wish I could get motivated to get up in mornings, maybe im getting too much sleep.

If anyone reading this has any info on clicky hips please leave me a comment. xx

Fun with a cardboard box

We had a cardboard box just doing nothing so it turned it something for calebs cars. Its nothing fancy but its give him an hour of playing and it didn't cost a thing to make. I used green fabric for grass and blue for puddles. We had car parking spaces, tunnel and a car wash . Heres some photos xx