Perfection

What is perfection ?

I always wondered what perfection is and having kids I always wondered how many  kids would be perfect for me. Well I think we have perfection :-) dont get me wrong I love pregnancy and would happily have another baby but knowing I more than likely won't ( due to being sterilised, never say never ). I look at cody and realise every smile and coo he makes , makes me melt . I know I had them with esmae and caleb but they seems

So distant now and cody is now and I'm cherishing every moment . I love them all to pieces and my life is at its perfect balance with kids . 

Watching TV programs about babies makes me broody but now it's time to make the most of the time I have with them especial how quick they grow.

I miss caleb as a baby I really do and could go back to hold him being so small.

Cody will have so many kisses and cuddles. The bit that makes it special is also being able to breastfeed him when I can. After 2 other pregnancies I finally can say I'm in control of my diabetes . Through the hypos it makes me more determined to continue to express and feed him how I do . 

Only you know yourself how you want to do it all , your instinct is the key.

Breastfeeding is fab but not for everyone and with going through formula feeding, expressing and now being able to breastfeed I will never judge anyone and feel sad for the arguments that start over it, the judgement people cause . It's hard to explain to someone when I say I express and they ask questions or someone looks and presumes cody is formula fed due to bottle feeding . But ive learnt I know how I feed him and that's all that matters.

So what is perfection ? I say whatever you want it to be and you will know.