Breast , bottle or pump

As I was feeding cody today I stared at him and wondered how many people would look and think he was formula fed due to the bottle .

I want you to know first I don't want to cause a debate at all and just want to write my feelings down.

Weather breast fed or bottle fed a baby needs to be fed however you decide .

Hospitals and health visitors push so much for a baby to be breast fed but it's not as easy as it's made out .

I was 24 with my first and didn't really think about breast feeding but planned on expressing due to him being early and on neonatal . Well that didn't go to plan , I had a bad hypo and was told to leave it as it wasn't good . I wish I had tried again as I do have that gulilt that his ear problems were due to not giving him the best start but I can't change that now . He's happy and that's all that matters .

Since I didn't exoress with caleb I was more determined with esmae . I managed 9 months and I am pleased I did . It was more of a personal reason because diabetes gets in the way so much I felt I had to show myself diabetes wouldn't beat me .

To be honest I just got on with it and we did it and never look back .

Because I was succesful I wanted to express for cody to . It's works for us and it makes me happy .

I can't believe the cost of formula so am pleased that I know I don't have to put money away for a tub each week .

This time around I wanted to breast feed to and it makes me even more happy we can do both . 

I'm not very good with getting up in the night to express so thought I would try and breast feed in the night to save having to express or even mess about with night bottles . 

Cody is gaining nicely and has his own line , with chunky thighs and a solid weight I know I'm doing well .

So no matter how you want or do feed your baby it's your choice . It's easy for me to say don't listen to a moaning person because your breastfeeding or ignore the person moaning about formula and how it's bad . Your baby will be happy Aslong as they are being fed .

I just wish people weren't so judgmental . I wonder what someone thinks when I'm bottle feeding cody , worry what should I say when they ask are you breast feeding even though I express . I've learnt though now it doesn't matter what others say he's my son and I choose how to feed him . And to be honest I'm glad I can just do both , Breast and bottle fed and with all my time put into it .

Faye x 

Spaghetti spider hotdogs

I thought I would share my post on something I had seen from a friend and wanted to try .

Esmae is a fussy eater at the moment so struggle sometimes . I don't want to keep giving her toast or sandwiches . So we tried spaghetti spider hot dogs . They can have any name really just they look like spiders :-) . They would make a great Halloween dinner to. 

They are so easy to make to . I thought I'd take some photos to show step by step .

Place however many strands of spaghetti   Through the cut up hot dog . I broke the strands in half as they fit better in the pan . Fill the pain with water and bring them to boil .

Let them simmer till they are cooked . 

Drain the water once cooked and serve . 

You can add a sauce and other ingredients to bulk the meal up .

I added tomato ketchup so there was a bit of flavour . Didn't want to add too much just Incase she didn't eat it .

Here's the finished meal . So simple .

Esmae enjoyed her dinner and ate it all . 

Enjoy 

Faye x

Ps this isn't my recipe I'm just passing it on from what I've seen .

Weigh in week 1 .

Monday's are my weigh in and cheat day .

Last week the scales said 13st and this week the scales say ,

12st 12 so I have lost 2lb :-)

The only confusing thing is I had a drs appointment and she weighed me and looks like my scales are out so I either need some new ones or just take the extra weight off mine and count the weight of there which isn't too bad .

The drs scales said I was 12st 7 so there is 7lbs difference which I obviously like the lighter number .

So if scales are right that should make me 12st 5. Our local childrens centre has a walk on scales so could always do that after school run .

I do feel bad for cody as I think he's got bad wind from the butternut squash I made but it is yummy . Will make some more for this weeks lunches as it's nice with toast .

It's 0 pints to which is always good . I'm not a member of wws online so had to search for recipe and found one . This is just a rough guide and pretty simple.

0 point butternut squash 

1 butternut squash

1 red pepper

1 onion

1 or 2 vegetable stock cubes.

Method.

Peel and cut butternut squash and onion..do the same with the pepper .

Put all the vegetables in a large pan.  Some recipes say use 1 stock cube and others say 2 so you choose how much stock / soup you want as a end result . Each stock cube needs 500ml of water , dissolve the cube then add to the pan.

I let the contents come to boil then left to simmer once everything was cooked and soft .

Once this is done blend the soup and store .

This is a simple recipe for a 0 point meal or snack . You can add anything to if you want and have bread with it without feeling guilty about the points .

Let's hope next week is a loss in weight to.

Faye x

Back on weight watchers

So October is here and I need to get back on the weight watchers . Ideally I need 28lbs. 

Starting point is 13st.

I think I get 44 points due to breastfeeding cody . I'm planning on using not as much as that seems too much . 

Today has been good trying to fill me self with free foods and squash so I get what I need .

I know I have a long way to go to loose the weight but I'm feeling determined . I've got the latest zumba for xbox and kinect so that will tone me down , I hope .

I think I just eat for the sake of it at night time so I've started some Christmas cross stitch to keep me entertained . So fingers crossed maybe sfter christmas I will be the weight I want to be .

Monday's will be my update day I think so wish me luck.

Faye x

Please don't judge me because I'm diabetic

As you know I'm a diabetic and it's never going away much to my disappointment .

There's a lot in the news at the moment and its focused at type 2 not type 1 like me.

Weather it's type 1 or type 2 it's not easy but as a type one we get judged so much but why do I feel bad about it .

Type one is when the body doesn't produce insulin and type 2 is when the body does  not produce  enough .

There is lots of information on the Internet in both so i won't go into all the details .

Type 1 usually comes when your younger and is controlled by insulin either through injections or a pump .

Type 2 is triggered by obesity , a trauma can bring it on , family history , poor diet  and other things.

No one is control of it so it's not anyone's fault that we get it but a little bit of care and education can help improve it.

My main negative thing is type 1s are put down and it's not good.

I've been diabetic now 17years now and still I fear a hypo. I feel people judge me  as a hypo can change me into something I'm not.

I feel a hypo can make someone judge me because my body signals so many different things . I go weak and need sugar yet if I don't know I'm having one it can get worse quickly. I may act strange and fear one day some one will think I'm being odd and not actually help me. There are too many people that would walk away. Unless your first aid trained or you can tell a Pearson what's happening you get left and looked at funny.

We have no control to a point how quick a hypo can change us and this is such a scary thing .

People think if we eat a piece of chocolate it's a sin . As a type 1 either injection or pump we have control over what we eat and majority of us do . Why should we let it beat us. 

Why should we feel judged ? I think alot of it is what's in the news . People automatically think oh it ok a few changes and it's all sorted but it's not.

Diabetes Is a lifetime thing not something that will go.

I wish it would go away it's so hard at times.

Faye x

Perfection

What is perfection ?

I always wondered what perfection is and having kids I always wondered how many  kids would be perfect for me. Well I think we have perfection :-) dont get me wrong I love pregnancy and would happily have another baby but knowing I more than likely won't ( due to being sterilised, never say never ). I look at cody and realise every smile and coo he makes , makes me melt . I know I had them with esmae and caleb but they seems

So distant now and cody is now and I'm cherishing every moment . I love them all to pieces and my life is at its perfect balance with kids . 

Watching TV programs about babies makes me broody but now it's time to make the most of the time I have with them especial how quick they grow.

I miss caleb as a baby I really do and could go back to hold him being so small.

Cody will have so many kisses and cuddles. The bit that makes it special is also being able to breastfeed him when I can. After 2 other pregnancies I finally can say I'm in control of my diabetes . Through the hypos it makes me more determined to continue to express and feed him how I do . 

Only you know yourself how you want to do it all , your instinct is the key.

Breastfeeding is fab but not for everyone and with going through formula feeding, expressing and now being able to breastfeed I will never judge anyone and feel sad for the arguments that start over it, the judgement people cause . It's hard to explain to someone when I say I express and they ask questions or someone looks and presumes cody is formula fed due to bottle feeding . But ive learnt I know how I feed him and that's all that matters.

So what is perfection ? I say whatever you want it to be and you will know.