More laser surgery

I had my review appointment at the eye infirmary today and looks like I need more on my left eye. Something to do with one of my vessels needs fixing. Luckily my appointment was at 1:30 and I got out about 2:45. I had eye drops then photos , review with dr tand then more photos but this time colour ones. I don't think its sunk in yet, I don't mind having it but even though it isn't too painful I'm not a big fan of having it done.

The worst thing is if I'm having laser surgery now at age of 28 I dread to think what my eyes are going to be like when I'm older. I was the only youngish one at clinc. 

It's so hard to try and get a balance right wih my sugars. I always feel like the dr probably thinks I'm useless at controlling it and I don't care. I know I should feel like it but I feel that unless your diabetic yourself no one knows how hard it.

Also had my blood taken for my drs appointment . Really hoping it will be ok, not feeling positivite thought. Got a feeling this will come in 3'. 

1- eyes. 2- blood results not what dr wants . 3- the dr will want further tests on my toe as it hasn't disappeared . 

I want to think positive but can't. 

Laser surgery will be in 4 weeks.

Faye x