Pictures then and now fro transplant day. ***** scar photo included****

As I previously said I wanted to update with photos.
Im really proud of my scar and maybe in the future I will do more to promote it and make people more aware of organ donation.
Its life changing it really is. Its not easy far from it and when I have my next op to move it onto my bowel I know what to expect good and bad as Ive had 2 lots of surgery both good and bad.
Please feel free to comment and message me. I want to be able to support people even if its a family member asking for someone or yourself who's waiting on the waiting list. I had friends who had gone through similar and its a relief to know they feel what you feel and understand.
Like a diabetic knowing another diabetic only they can explain the excitement. Don't forget Im still diabetic just a treatment.
So heres my photos.
1st photo- 24 hours after surgery looking glam :-)

My lovely scar.

Day 5, my bloods were playing up so antibiotic and fluids to help.

 I only fancied jelly as even a week after surgery I was struggling with feeling sick. Just plenty of fluids.

 A week after surgery I had to do the glucose tolerance test. I only managed 2/5

 Bloods still playing up 9 days later and more medicine . These really hurt.








 I needed a blood transfusion before my second surgery. I didn't really know if op was happening until an hour before.

11 days after first surgery the 2nd op went well and I felt so much better.
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Home time even after a last min decision I nearly needed to stop in but convinced the I would call of any signs of feeling ill.

My scar now and its amazing. Don't be afraid to show people. This changed my life and its life is amazing.










I'm sorry if I have offended anyone I struggled to find pancreas transplant stories so want to help others and support them through their journey to.
Thanks Faye

Life gets exciting new update 😃

So it’s been a while since I last updated and I wanted to share my story and
Help others with thier battles.
So a while  ago I posted 3 wishes and I managed to get my house 3 years ago and even tho Hi my appointments won’t ease I have exciting news for my diabetes.
Here’s goes.
About July 2017 I finally got funding for cgm with my pump and it helped a lot but with even that the hypos continued and no matter what me and my diabetes team tried we couldn’t stop the hypos and I still suffered dangerous lows. It was decided February 18 the dr would refer my case to oxford for islet cell transplant. My first appointment was June 18 with a number of consultants , a professor and a transplant co ordinator . We made some changes, talked in depth about the process and even spoke about pancreas transplant. I was to return in 3 months.
September- follow up with the usual team and a few changes helped but nothing major. Again a few changes and tests requested to get things started . Another 3 months went by and by this time I had another bad hypo needing an ambulance . I asked about if I would be candidate for pancreas transplant . They agreed it could be but I needed to see a surgeon to see what he thought and saw them in January .
The talk was in depth and I made my mind up that was I wanted if I was suitable and I needed to
Meet criteria . I had to have a heart test and after this I was taken to a big meeting to see if I was ideal and if I truly needed it. I honestly didn’t think I would .
Well may 18 I got the call to say I was all set to go and just needed to send monthly bloods and I’d be on the national waiting list for a donor .
May 25th 2018 I got the call at work I was all set and on the list. I couldn’t believe it. I was told 12-18 months and I was happy with that as I had a holiday booked and wanted to get school uniforms sorted .
I was due to go on holiday and monthly bloods were due so my dad said to get them
Done before so we didn’t miss any calls . That was the Tuesday and by the Friday that week I got the call.
5am and I still do not remember it all . My poor dad was my taxi and we got to the ward at 7:30 .
Time went past and I was potential for the donor 3’wrrks after being on the list 😳.
Nurses came in to do checks , drs explaining things , me signing a consent form and seeing a
Surgeon . The day went to so quick and by 3pm I was in theatre. My dad was waiting patiently . It wasn’t until 1am the following day I was back in my room. I had it done a new pancreas .i was relieved but this was a long journey .
More to follow here’s Plus I  post photos  not long after the op so excuse the mess of me.
Promise to update more when I’m on the pc.
Faye x

Diabetes struggles

Well it's that time of the year when I hit a point where I just can't get my sugars right. Theses are morning ones and they knock me out . I normally don't let them get in the way of the things but this time I've had to call in sick :-( . Luckily my colleagues care and ask how I am .
In the last month I've probably had 4 maybe 5 bad ones .
It gets me down at times as I can't hit that magic button and say it's gone or fixed . I have a few diabetic friends and it's such a relief when you explain to them how you've been and they understand .
So I decided to see my diabetic nurse and he's halved my insulin and put me on a waiting list for a cgm to be funded .
I wouldn't even mind if it was temporary just to see what my body actually does. After near enough 20yrs you'd think I'd find the balance but no it's not that simple .
Wish me luck . Keep you updated 😃
Faye x

Tooth fairy pocket diy tutorial

So my first born has lost his first tooth and I always thought I would be prepared with something handmade . Well I wasn't so I've quickly made something and thought I'd share.

You will need -

Felt in colour of your choice 

Ribbon 

Thread 

Ada for personalisation if you want.

I started off with the Ada to do Caleb's name . I just went with the flow and made the pattern for the name. There is lots of online cross stitch alphabets to make it fancy .

Once I finished I cut the Ada so I could work out the size of the pocket for the felt.

I then needed a tooth to put on the front. I used Google to get a rough idea and used white felt . 

Once all these are cut out and cross stitched put the pieces together in way you want .

Sew the pieces onto the front piece then sew both the pieces together adding ribbon to the corner so you can tie it in a safe place .

I'm going to add a little hand written note with some money for when he wakes in the morning .

Faye

Breast , bottle or pump

As I was feeding cody today I stared at him and wondered how many people would look and think he was formula fed due to the bottle .

I want you to know first I don't want to cause a debate at all and just want to write my feelings down.

Weather breast fed or bottle fed a baby needs to be fed however you decide .

Hospitals and health visitors push so much for a baby to be breast fed but it's not as easy as it's made out .

I was 24 with my first and didn't really think about breast feeding but planned on expressing due to him being early and on neonatal . Well that didn't go to plan , I had a bad hypo and was told to leave it as it wasn't good . I wish I had tried again as I do have that gulilt that his ear problems were due to not giving him the best start but I can't change that now . He's happy and that's all that matters .

Since I didn't exoress with caleb I was more determined with esmae . I managed 9 months and I am pleased I did . It was more of a personal reason because diabetes gets in the way so much I felt I had to show myself diabetes wouldn't beat me .

To be honest I just got on with it and we did it and never look back .

Because I was succesful I wanted to express for cody to . It's works for us and it makes me happy .

I can't believe the cost of formula so am pleased that I know I don't have to put money away for a tub each week .

This time around I wanted to breast feed to and it makes me even more happy we can do both . 

I'm not very good with getting up in the night to express so thought I would try and breast feed in the night to save having to express or even mess about with night bottles . 

Cody is gaining nicely and has his own line , with chunky thighs and a solid weight I know I'm doing well .

So no matter how you want or do feed your baby it's your choice . It's easy for me to say don't listen to a moaning person because your breastfeeding or ignore the person moaning about formula and how it's bad . Your baby will be happy Aslong as they are being fed .

I just wish people weren't so judgmental . I wonder what someone thinks when I'm bottle feeding cody , worry what should I say when they ask are you breast feeding even though I express . I've learnt though now it doesn't matter what others say he's my son and I choose how to feed him . And to be honest I'm glad I can just do both , Breast and bottle fed and with all my time put into it .

Faye x 

Spaghetti spider hotdogs

I thought I would share my post on something I had seen from a friend and wanted to try .

Esmae is a fussy eater at the moment so struggle sometimes . I don't want to keep giving her toast or sandwiches . So we tried spaghetti spider hot dogs . They can have any name really just they look like spiders :-) . They would make a great Halloween dinner to. 

They are so easy to make to . I thought I'd take some photos to show step by step .

Place however many strands of spaghetti   Through the cut up hot dog . I broke the strands in half as they fit better in the pan . Fill the pain with water and bring them to boil .

Let them simmer till they are cooked . 

Drain the water once cooked and serve . 

You can add a sauce and other ingredients to bulk the meal up .

I added tomato ketchup so there was a bit of flavour . Didn't want to add too much just Incase she didn't eat it .

Here's the finished meal . So simple .

Esmae enjoyed her dinner and ate it all . 

Enjoy 

Faye x

Ps this isn't my recipe I'm just passing it on from what I've seen .

Weigh in week 1 .

Monday's are my weigh in and cheat day .

Last week the scales said 13st and this week the scales say ,

12st 12 so I have lost 2lb :-)

The only confusing thing is I had a drs appointment and she weighed me and looks like my scales are out so I either need some new ones or just take the extra weight off mine and count the weight of there which isn't too bad .

The drs scales said I was 12st 7 so there is 7lbs difference which I obviously like the lighter number .

So if scales are right that should make me 12st 5. Our local childrens centre has a walk on scales so could always do that after school run .

I do feel bad for cody as I think he's got bad wind from the butternut squash I made but it is yummy . Will make some more for this weeks lunches as it's nice with toast .

It's 0 pints to which is always good . I'm not a member of wws online so had to search for recipe and found one . This is just a rough guide and pretty simple.

0 point butternut squash 

1 butternut squash

1 red pepper

1 onion

1 or 2 vegetable stock cubes.

Method.

Peel and cut butternut squash and onion..do the same with the pepper .

Put all the vegetables in a large pan.  Some recipes say use 1 stock cube and others say 2 so you choose how much stock / soup you want as a end result . Each stock cube needs 500ml of water , dissolve the cube then add to the pan.

I let the contents come to boil then left to simmer once everything was cooked and soft .

Once this is done blend the soup and store .

This is a simple recipe for a 0 point meal or snack . You can add anything to if you want and have bread with it without feeling guilty about the points .

Let's hope next week is a loss in weight to.

Faye x

Back on weight watchers

So October is here and I need to get back on the weight watchers . Ideally I need 28lbs. 

Starting point is 13st.

I think I get 44 points due to breastfeeding cody . I'm planning on using not as much as that seems too much . 

Today has been good trying to fill me self with free foods and squash so I get what I need .

I know I have a long way to go to loose the weight but I'm feeling determined . I've got the latest zumba for xbox and kinect so that will tone me down , I hope .

I think I just eat for the sake of it at night time so I've started some Christmas cross stitch to keep me entertained . So fingers crossed maybe sfter christmas I will be the weight I want to be .

Monday's will be my update day I think so wish me luck.

Faye x

Please don't judge me because I'm diabetic

As you know I'm a diabetic and it's never going away much to my disappointment .

There's a lot in the news at the moment and its focused at type 2 not type 1 like me.

Weather it's type 1 or type 2 it's not easy but as a type one we get judged so much but why do I feel bad about it .

Type one is when the body doesn't produce insulin and type 2 is when the body does  not produce  enough .

There is lots of information on the Internet in both so i won't go into all the details .

Type 1 usually comes when your younger and is controlled by insulin either through injections or a pump .

Type 2 is triggered by obesity , a trauma can bring it on , family history , poor diet  and other things.

No one is control of it so it's not anyone's fault that we get it but a little bit of care and education can help improve it.

My main negative thing is type 1s are put down and it's not good.

I've been diabetic now 17years now and still I fear a hypo. I feel people judge me  as a hypo can change me into something I'm not.

I feel a hypo can make someone judge me because my body signals so many different things . I go weak and need sugar yet if I don't know I'm having one it can get worse quickly. I may act strange and fear one day some one will think I'm being odd and not actually help me. There are too many people that would walk away. Unless your first aid trained or you can tell a Pearson what's happening you get left and looked at funny.

We have no control to a point how quick a hypo can change us and this is such a scary thing .

People think if we eat a piece of chocolate it's a sin . As a type 1 either injection or pump we have control over what we eat and majority of us do . Why should we let it beat us. 

Why should we feel judged ? I think alot of it is what's in the news . People automatically think oh it ok a few changes and it's all sorted but it's not.

Diabetes Is a lifetime thing not something that will go.

I wish it would go away it's so hard at times.

Faye x

Perfection

What is perfection ?

I always wondered what perfection is and having kids I always wondered how many  kids would be perfect for me. Well I think we have perfection :-) dont get me wrong I love pregnancy and would happily have another baby but knowing I more than likely won't ( due to being sterilised, never say never ). I look at cody and realise every smile and coo he makes , makes me melt . I know I had them with esmae and caleb but they seems

So distant now and cody is now and I'm cherishing every moment . I love them all to pieces and my life is at its perfect balance with kids . 

Watching TV programs about babies makes me broody but now it's time to make the most of the time I have with them especial how quick they grow.

I miss caleb as a baby I really do and could go back to hold him being so small.

Cody will have so many kisses and cuddles. The bit that makes it special is also being able to breastfeed him when I can. After 2 other pregnancies I finally can say I'm in control of my diabetes . Through the hypos it makes me more determined to continue to express and feed him how I do . 

Only you know yourself how you want to do it all , your instinct is the key.

Breastfeeding is fab but not for everyone and with going through formula feeding, expressing and now being able to breastfeed I will never judge anyone and feel sad for the arguments that start over it, the judgement people cause . It's hard to explain to someone when I say I express and they ask questions or someone looks and presumes cody is formula fed due to bottle feeding . But ive learnt I know how I feed him and that's all that matters.

So what is perfection ? I say whatever you want it to be and you will know.

 

Baby cuddles

My not so little cody is growing up quick but I'm loving every moment with him. I can't believe he's 2 1/2 months already .

I wanted a post about his latest cuddles .

Nothing is more pleasing than having a cuddle from cody and here's a few photos of him snuggled up :-)

Can't believe how big he is getting .

Faye xx

Mixed emotions

My mind is all over the place at the moment with everything changing .

Caleb starting school , selling the flat and the birth of cody .

I am so happy with my life right now and want it to continue .

Caleb had a party today and it filled me so much pride that how much people have said how polite he is . This makes me  feel amazing . Through all the tantyms and tears at least I know he says his please and thank you's and this makes me feel that pride knowing me and my husband have brought him Up well. Esmae is getting there and we keep working at it . She does understand once you have given her something she needs to say thank you .

My other mixed emotions are the felling of loneliness as I do miss my husband at the night no matter how much I love the bed to myself . Plus it's suddenly hit me my kids are growing up too quick and no matter how hard they are being I wish they would stay little.

I have been into the kids room A few times tonight . Looked at the photos on the wall missing them as a baby.

Cody is next to me sleeping and every now and again he gives a sigh.

I love my family to bits just wish time wouldn't go so quick.

Faye x

Growing up to quick

My kids are growing up to quick .

When caleb came along , time when steady and at times I couldn't wait for school . Esmae came along and the time has gone so quick . Everything seems a blur how is she 2 already .

Now Cody is here I want time to slow down with him being my last .

I always miss them at night . The flat is peaceful . I never know if I should tidy or sleep and to be honest sleep wins most I of the time . Especially with the early risers .

They really aren't babies long . Cherish every minute . I would never change how  I did things as that's what made them who they are and they are happy so I'm obviously doing something right .

Enjoy every feed breast or bottle . Enjoy every second of sleep , sharing your bed or in a crib next you . Enjoy every walk , every car or bus ride . Enjoy every moment . Times will be hard as they grow but remember they are only small once . I always thought we would spoil my kids as a baby if I held them all the time and that's not the truth . You can never spoil them with to much love.

Do it your way , try not to worry what  others think .

Since having caleb I have realised no child is perfect . And what makes it better is my friends understand and the person in the shop with the screaming kid is going through the same .

Kiss the goodnight , hold them tight they are only little once . 

As I finish this I can hear Cody grunt and breathe and makes  me smile . No matter  how you do things it doesn't matter what others say . Enjoy being a parent and make the most of them being small and needing you . ❤️❤️❤️

Sometimes you have to drop everything

Friday night and I'm so glad tomorrow isn't a school day.

I feel like I have so much to do but not enough time when its a school day . But because tomorrow isn't school I don't have to worry.

This little man is fighting sleep . He's been fed and changed and now needs a nap but isn't having any of it so I've dropped all I need to do for cuddles with cody. I think he wants cuddles to.

To be honest all I have to do is that up but there feels like lots. So a sit down it is .

Babies grow up to quick and I see that with my other to so when cody needs a cuddle I make the most of it .

Hes 9 weeks already and it's going past to quick . 

30 mins later and cosy is still wide awake 😃.

I think he's hungry by the way he's fidgeting on me .

No early night for me but means a lazy day for us all tomorrow x

Another year diabetic

Another year more bloods and hospital visits.

This year has been full up of hypos and growing amounts of insulin .

The main reason was my pregnancy and I wouldn't change it. 

I still wish I didn't have it , it's such a pain and with expressing all I want to do is ear junk which isn't good :-( my average sugar blood test was lowest at 7.9 I think and have had one recently but need to find out what it is . 

It's never going to be easy and I wish it was . I hate having to think what's the carbs in this . Should I eat it and will I have a hypo . 

Hypos are the main thing I hate being as a diabetic and no matter how many years I have it I don't think I will step out and not worry about them .

I've lost count . I keep thinking I should tell my eldest of the children what to do if I was ever to collapse . I always carry a tag saying in diabetic but where I live some one probably wouldn't know what to do or think I was a bit loopy .

Caleb is coming on 5 so better make a plan. I try and carry lucozade or something sweet with me at all time and caleb calls it my medicine . 

I'm hoping to send off my driving license for renewal and I'm hoping the dr will allow me to learn again with my hypos . I know I will need it to be higher when I drive as my sugars can be so erratic and to be honest I would never drive with it being below a certain level anyway .

I have a few pages on my Facebook ayhat I can have a moan on and talk to people when I need advice . Unless your a diabetic no one knows what you go through .

There's new news on a possible cure something to do with making new cells that do something with your body and is a temporary cure . I haven't read it properly and maybe I should but I still fear there won't be a cure and I will be diabetic always.

The one wish I want is that none of my kids get it. It's bad enough me looking after myself with it let alone it happening to them.

My lifeline is my pump and I would be lost without it. I've learnt through having problems with my eyes and complications with pregnancy it's not worth messing about with.

Majority of people say don't let it beat you , you beat it . But I will always be in te middle of that. I'm not perfect far from it but I know my limits and just wish I could press a button to correct a hypo or correct my insulin rates just for that perfect hba1c.

Maybe next year without the expressing and esmae at school I will have time to sit down and get it right. Have the perfect rates for my body and eat what I want and not rebound for it.

No matter what you do speak to people who understand being a diabetic . I have a great friend who I text every day and we keep each motivated . It's just easy trying to tell someone how it works but just being there for them gives you a boost they need .

It makes me feel better that they know how I feel when I say my sugar is x.x and they don't Judge or I say I've had some Chocolate and they don't snap at me saying don't do that .

Still I worry about hypos in the street and what peope think. I do check my bold more in public now and wear my pump on my arm without hiding it .

I had one person ask me what it was the once and I explained and they made me feel like I was a cripple if I'm honest . I know it's a big thing to have but I've had it for long enough to know what it's like. As the years have gone by I find myself defensive of being a diabetic . Still drs think your textbook and that you can have a perfect balance but that's not the case .

Having 3 kids means I might eat my breakfast on time but things that go on in the day push things aside so 12 o'clock lunch might actually be at 11 am just so I know I've eaten . 

It's becoming more well known but the number of peope becoming diabetic is growing to . It's a life time of something that no one wants .

I just want to step outside without the constant need of sugar or added insulin .

17 years I'm starting to understand it all and not be silly. Yes I have chocolate and sweets but I count for it and make sure I'm ok before bed.

Please don't be afraid to talk to people about it . It's not easy no matter how long you have had it.

8 weeks old

Today Cody is 8 weeks old weighing 12lb  9.

He's my little chunk and still an average baby on the graph so his constant eating is t doing him any harm.

Today was jab day to and he screamed so hard . Luckily after a few mins he was settled but I think he's got a cold coming and he's got a snuffly nose . Luckily lying in his front is helping him sleep and I can express .

He's going through a hungry stage at the moment and think he just likes a full belly and by 2 hrs after a bottle he gets hungry . I was going to go to the breast feeding group to ask for advice as I don't remember esmae like this . Luckily I read something on Kellymom I think saying it takes 90 mins for breast milk to digest and is probably why he doesn't go long sometimes and also if at night when I breast feed him he takes what he wants so could just be top ups for him and wonder if he still only wants 4oz each time .

I wouldn't change it , just need to use some freezer milk as some is coming up to 3 months and want him not to have big back up . I'm wondering if it will come  nearer to weaning him for food I will use the freezer milk for porridge and his food .

I sti hate it though that the hv double asks if he's fully express fed just because they don't think you can do it . It's hard work but it's my achievrment and bond I get especially breastfeeding at night.

Exclusively breast fed :-)

Sitting here in the bed feeding Cody is the best feeling .im so glad we can bottle and breast feed to. I sometimes think am I lazy for not completely breast feeding but then I remind myself he is to a point .

Just because he has my milk in a bottle doesn't mean he's not . Nearly 2 months in and probably since day 3 he's been exclusively breast milk and I couldn't be happier .

I'm not so confident with the while bf in public if I'm honest so it scares me and jus we have a routine with expressing I don't think I want to break it . It's hard work and I have times where I want to Ditch the pump but I carry on .

The times are hard when I don't want to pump , be able about bit getting sore if I leave it too long but then I remember I did it for esmae and what a good feeling it gives me .

My personal reason is I feel it helped esmae stay away from dr visits and rarely gets ill . Where's as caleb suffered with his ears and was always getting colds . It also keeps my diabetes on track to a point just wish I ate better so I could loose some extra pounds .

I love the feeling after he has fed and finishes a feed with a let go then snuggles into me . So relaxed and fast asleep . 

The night and early feeds are so much easier and we get to snuggle quite close . I love waking up to see him warm and Cosey .

It's hard when someone asks if he's breast fed and I struggle and explain he's expressed milk in a bottle then realise he more or less breast fed .

The one thing is I know he's gaining weight and he's not so small . He's quite a chunk .

Weight check Wednesday and my scales read 16lb. :-)

Exclusively pumping again

If you've followed me from my daughter you know I expressed for my daughter for about 9 months .

I'm doing it again for Cody and couldn't be happier . I was lucky enough to be told after my c section I could use a breast pump so this helped a lot bring in my milk and I was even able to express before ( hand for colostrum ) my section so was getting my body ready.

This time around Cody was allowed to feed from me whilst I was in recovery room and I'm so glad the did . Even though he had to go to neonatal due to low blood sugars because he wasn't relying on me. He was fed high calorie formula to boost him and did for a couple of days. I do wish they had give him a chance on my milk sooner but he's healthy and thriving now.

So near enough once I was able to sit up a started to express . I was only getting small amounts to start but the pump helped so much . I probably pumped every 3-4 hrs and pumped when I woke in the night. 

This was my setup in the hospital 😃

Luckily the hospitals pump fitted into thier bottles. I would then pump for about 20 mins ish in total listening to music hoping no one would disturb me as I always felt conscious of myself even though they've seem it all before .

I would take the milk from the bottle then put into the syringe then label it up ready for neonatal . During the night I left it in the bottle in the fridge as he wasn't having my milk just yet .

Luckily because if doing it with esmae I felt more confident doing it and when asked why I did it I didn't feel pressured to feel bad because it was my choice.

I felt good taking my milk for Cody .

I think once he was with me on the Friday I was allowed to just get on with it and feed him my milk. I was worried he wouldn't get enough as he needed 60ml every 3 hrs at this stage and the first 2 feeds he needed his sugars checking to make sure he wasn't stopping and my milk was doing it's job. Luckily they were fine and I was left to it. 

I made the most of being in hospital so I could get my routine and it helped so much.

5 weeks on we are still going strong . It took upto week 4 to get to birth weight and just over 9 days later he had out on 1lb . He's now 10lb 4.

I was starting to worry as because it's not out if a tin I panic I'm not giving him enough plus I do bf in the night due to being rubbish at expressing in night and it's a win win situation .

Maybe I should breastfeed all the time but with the other 2 at home exoressing works for us.

So what's my routine .

We normally breastfeed at early hours .

12,4 and maybe 6, he settles and is happy.

Then I express at 9am , 11am, 1pm, 3pm, 5pm 7pm and 9pm. The early hour feeds keep my supply up to.

I've just worked out I express about 25ozs a day which he has throughout the day and I've been able to freeze 300ml for extra supply. 

It is hard work and if your determined you just stick to it. It's just part of my usual day now and get on with it.

It helps me control my diabetes to as I don't need as much insulin and the weightloss is great. After 2 weeks I had lost my pregnancy weight and now lost a few extra pounds.

Just remember no matter how you feed your baby , breast , expressing it formula your baby will benefit no matter what.

Please feel free to ask any questions .

Faye xx

Super mom

So since having Cody my friends say I must be super mom with 3 .

I must say having an extra child doesn't seem any different. I won't lie and say it's easy , going out can be tough when caleb doesn't want to walk or esmae won't go in seat in push chair but you just have to get on with it.

I definately wouldnt change having 3 or them bieng close together .its scary to think I have 3 under 5 but the age difference is just right . Caleb goes to school full time this year and esmae gets free nursery from next and the time goes too quick .

Everyone asks how I manage to be organised and I think it's just a case of doing everything the night before and having a plan. Also my husband likes to be organised and I think Bits had brushed on to me, plus  it's easier with a routine .Everyday has a to do list but it keeps me on track and it makes  me happy once it's all done .

I even went out and bought a book for all my to do's. Also everyday of the week in the calendar has what im doing on it so I'm on track especially with baby brain.

So no matter if it's 1, 2 or even 3 kids I think it's just a case of planning and you'll get there .

Each day is pretty busy especially with expressing for Cody but the sense of achievement knowing I'm feeding him makes it more worth while . Even cal and esmae aren't bothered by it and just carry on with playing. I think doing it with esmae and succeeding prepared me . Let's hope I can go a yr for Cody as I did 10 months for esmae . My freezer stash is coming on nicely and getting a good daily supply to .

I love my kids and my life that comes with it . Let's just hope this year isn't to bad for health appointments as I'm sure it will be hectic but we will get there .

Just remember every one is a super mom and you should felt proud :-) .

1 month on

So Cody was 1 month yesterday and still doing well .

He was born 9lb 3 and after a month of mommies milk he's finally pasted his birthweight and weighing 10lb 4. His last weight check was about 10 days and he gained a lb. it makes me happy that I'm still able to express and he's gaining nicely . The freezer is start to fill up with milk I've freezed and he's having fresh milk daily . We do bottles in day and I breastfeeding at night to save expressing and keep up supply plus he's getting fed so we all win.

I do find myself wanting to breastfeed more but expressing in the day works best and if I'm and don't want to take the  pump I will just take 1 bottle and then breastfeed him .

I'm happy with the way it's worked out and glad he can latch to.

Cody did suffer from tongue tie and we had that sorted after about 2 weeks . The  lady at the hospital was lovely and doubled checked to see if he needed it doing and explained it all. It only took a cut of the string but under tongue and it was all done . He had a bit of a cry but was soon back to sleep. So I definately recommend it when they are younger .

In the first month I was lucky to have my husband at home and he's only just gone back to work and the week has gone pretty quick .

We've had the usual checks with health visitors and also a check up for his jaundice which came back high but after 4 weeks he's looking a normal colour . 

At the moment he's just got a heart murmur check in September then the usual hv checks and injections when the time comes .

I wouldn't change having the 3 children close together at all. Days can be long but they keep me smiling and we just get on with it.

Caleb is going full time school in September and I think it will help him so much. He's come on a lot since nursery. Will do a separate post for caleb.

Here's some photos of Cody through the past month 😍